I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately. (uh, oh…)
My purpose for doing the Reinventure blog is to help other stifled Creatives muster up the courage to allow their creative expression…to allow themselves…to be seen.
I started it because I have been a closet Creative for far too long and once I dipped my toes back into the creativity pool, I realized how important it was for me to stop standing on sidelines and to jump right in.
I can choose a life where I go through the motions, pay my bills, consume other’s creativity, and never create anything of my own, but I won’t be living. I’d be merely existing.
Creativity is life to me. Without it, I’m incomplete.
I walked away from it for a very long time, but once I allowed myself and my creativity to be seen, I realized just how whole it made me feel. How it makes me come alive!
I knew I couldn’t be the only one living a life of mere existence, so I decided to start this blog to reach others like me who have been holding back on who they really are.
There’s a quote from Les Brown that haunts me (pun intended):
“The graveyard is the richest place on earth, because it is here that you will find all the hopes and dreams that were never fulfilled, the books that were never written, the songs that were never sung, the inventions that were never shared, the cures that were never discovered, all because someone was too afraid to take that first step, keep with the problem, or determined to carry out their dream.”
I’ve got so many things I want to create and I have yet to do most of them. I have stories that have been rattling around in my brain for so long that I’m embarrassed to say.
I want to give life to all my creations. I want to set them free.
I want yours to be set free, too!
THAT is why I created Reinventure.
My hopes were that I could inspire others like me to breathe life into their dreams and courageously show them to the world.
I thought my fancy-shmancy writing or quirky videos could help other reluctant Creatives out there take that first, empowering step toward their dream and reignite their creativity.
Then something occurred to me (during that whole thinking bit I mentioned earlier)…
Who am I to tell others to take these grand steps?
Who am I to inspire anyone to allow themselves to be seen?
Who am I to talk about creative expression if I’m not doing the same thing?
Where are all the creations I’VE breathed life into?
Although I am more creative today than I have been in about twenty years, I don’t believe that I am “walking the walk” to the level I should be if I’m “talking the talk.”
Therefore, I have decided to put my money where my mouth is and take my creativity to the next level.
Sharing something you’ve created is some pretty scary stuff.
We’ve all faced criticisms and judgments for things we’ve tried to do. That stuff stays with you, especially the harsher bits, and it can be the main reason that most of us hold back from sharing ourselves with the world.
That’s what creative expression is, after all, right?
Opening ourselves up completely to the beady, judgy eyes of the world, shining a light on ourselves and being truly seen.
It’s about becoming as vulnerable as you can get. Kind of like being completely naked on stage in front of a million people.
So most of us avoid it like the plague, but, as Creatives, holding back from our own creativity is a painful practice that slowly eats away at us every day.
If you’re like me, you’ve had a handful of creative projects that have been swimming around in your noggin for years just dying to be set free. I’ve come up with every excuse imaginable to rationalize keeping them locked up inside me.
Like you, I have a pretty crazy life. I’m a single dad with a full-time job. Time is limited and precious.
In my spare time, I work on this blog that spouts bi-weekly bits on why you should be using your spare time to let your dreams come to life. Even though I’ve reduced my posting schedule to every other week, I do spend a good amount of time working on Reinventure.
Possibly too much time, I’ve begun to wonder.
You know those creative projects that have been bouncing around your brain all these years? Guess what? I have them, too.
A LOT of them.
I have yet to breathe life into them.
The oldest excuse in the book.
That’s when it occurred to me.
My schedule probably sounds familiar. Most of my week is spent earning a living, then I tend to my family, and then, in my free moments, I work on my side gig: Reinventure. Although, it can be viewed as a creative outlet, it’s still not the kind I need to fulfill me.
I’ve convinced myself that after attending to all my responsibilities mentioned above, I don’t have very much time for anything other than falling flat on my face in exhaustion.
My recent Ah-Ha! moment is that I believe I’ve been using this blog as my excuse to not allow myself to be seen as a Creative.
You’d think this guy spouting the necessity for creative expression would be producing all kinds of nifty things left and right…right?
But I haven’t.
Because I’m afraid, too.
Those ideas that have been rattling around my coconut for years are like my babies. I have yet to share them with the world for fear that everyone will hate them. That they will suck.
Which, obviously, means that I suck.
I’ve forgotten the real reason…the real purpose…of creative expression.
To do it because it brings me joy.
Not for approval or acceptance. Not even for fame or fortune (although they would be nice, I’m not gonna lie!).
Best Case Scenario
Have you ever noticed that we assume that when we’re standing on that stage completely naked that everyone will point and laugh, but never think that they just might give us a standing ovation, instead?
Why is it that we always focus on the worst possible outcome (which NEVER happens 99.99% of the time, by the way)?
If there is a Worst Case Scenario, then logic dictates that there also MUST be a Best Case Scenario (which has a greater chance of actually happening!).
Isn’t it time we changed our focus?
The Big Decision
So, basically, what all this jibba-jabba means is that I am going to put more time and effort into my own creative projects BEFORE I work on Reinventure. I’m not entirely clear on what that will do to my current posting schedule or the blog itself, but I have decided that I won’t stress over that right now.
I have chosen to begin with a project that’s been dying to come to life for some time and I plan on either using this blog or another to post updates along the way. In either case, I’ll keep you posted.
I have decided to write and illustrate my first children’s book: Coptopus
What’s it about? Well, you’ll just have to stay tuned to find out. Sneaky, I know.
Maybe through my decision to act and seeing my progress along the way, I can inspire you to do the same. I certainly hope I do.
There are far too many of us on this mud ball on a course to take our dreams to the grave.
Let’s change that.
Go Create Stuff!